Authenticity

I am going to admit one, extra thing about myself. Living life as authentically as I can has proved to me to be a very real challenge. Who knew that "pretending" and putting on "masks" would be so easy compared to living a life of truth. The fear of being myself has crippled me for a long time. Honestly, I blame myself a lot for this. People can only project their expectations, dreams, and desires for you ON you. But, it is up to the receptive individual to accept it or throw it away. I haven't been throwing other people's opinions on me away because I was afraid of rejection, getting dirty looks, being talked about, etc. For the past couple of months, I've been slowly trying to rid the layers that symbolically cover me; allowing myself to be raw and receptive to what my true nature is. Sorry if I'm sounding ambiguous, but you get what I'm trying to say right?

Authenticity (at least some of it):

1. I'm awkward, somewhat shy, and a bad conversationalist.
2. I'm talented in teaching myself how to do things when I'm patient.
3. I love almost all kinds of music.
4. I'm not great at doing science. I'm mediocre (a couple of points above average if I work really hard).
5. I don't want children.
6. I have a serious sweet tooth problem (before, during, and after my time of the month).
7. I'm infatuated with outer space.
8. I have stretch marks on my gluteus maximus that I think are sexy.
9. I like being alone 70-80% of the time (minus being on the job).
10. I can be emotionally detached at times.
11. I'm proud of my heritage and proud of being a woman.
12. I'd rather warm something up than cook.
13. I'd rather go out to eat than cook.
14. I've never gotten drunk and I plan to keep it that way.
15. I know how to find a cute and good quality dress for $15 or less.
16. I love being independent.
17. I think I'm attractive with or without makeup on.
18. I make a LOT of stupid mistakes. Many times more than once--to the point where I even have to question my sanity.
19. Some days, I feel really insecure.
20. I'm really nice, but I can be really mean too when I want to be.