Dream Chasing

I want to do so much. It's as if I'm hungry for an adventure and success (at least what I consider to be success), but of course there are always stumbling blocks which I've been coming across lately. I'm also trying hard not to compare my life with other people, but at times, I don't do such a very good job. There are people all around me who are falling in love and getting married, becoming entrepreneurs, traveling, starting families, finishing professional school, making investments such as buying land and homes, starting up businesses, and fulfilling their true calling. Me on the other hand...well, I'm still in the making. Intellectually, I know that everyone is continuously evolving into their higher selves, but I would be lying if I said that I didn't feel at least a little jealousy towards others. I know that I'm young and I still have some time under my belt to use, but for the particular plans that I have for my life, it's going to take FOREVER (okay, not literally forever but a very, very long time) to fulfill at least half of my dreams. I know that establishment takes time, but it's still annoying. In addition, I know that I'm supposed to give everything to God. However, I would also be lying if I said that I felt completely comfortable doing that. Yes, I am supposed to give Him absolute control over my life, but to get a definite answer as to where to turn and what to do is overwhelming hard to receive because I don't have that much patience to wait 20 or so years for a light bulb to start blinking in my brain. Thus, what can be wrong with making my own plans and giving those plans to God? If it's meant to work, it will. If not, even after I've tried everything possible, it's just not. 

So, I'm going to continue making my plans, and giving them to God. And with faith, I'll know that He's going to continue to establish his will into my life along the way. It's like me having the car and the steering wheel, but He's the one driving. Thus, I have a little bit more comfort and security know that I'm working towards having a happy and successful life while allowing God to give a stamp of approval. I have dreams, and like everyone else, I don't want to wait for them to fall into my lap. I've always been that way since I was that 11 year old kid staying up late, completing long assignments just to make an A and of course, to make my teachers proud. 

God, I want to make you proud of me too...but...can I have at least 50% of the control? I'll settle for 40%...30?