Celibacy, Damn You!!

Ugh. I don't know how I'm going to start this, but I'll just come out and type it. There are some things about sex that I believe I've been lied to about. I've heard that sex was over rated and that it's really not all that. Well, for the most part, I found that to be a lie. Why else would people talk about it so much? Engage in it so much? Write song lyrics about it constantly? Sex is pleasure. Sex is good. Sex is intimate, hot, steamy...you get the point. But after the end my previous relationship, I found a strong urge to take a break from sex for a while...for a long while. And here are my list of reasons:

I quit pre-marital sex because...

1. It's too emtionally taxing for me. I'm sorry. Unlike some women out there, I never learned how to separate my emotions from my vagina...and I probably will never learn.

2. I feel guilty. If you grew up in a family that drilled the "marriage before sex" idea into your head throughout your life, you will get what I mean.

3. I'm tired of thinking that I'm pregnant in the back of my mind (even though I faithfully utilize condoms). Even with protection, I would always have that fear of missing a period or two after sex. It's the fact that even though birth control works, it's never 100% effective.

4. It undermines me. I came to the realization that I'm more special than just an orgasm for somebody. Just saying.

5. It hurts to break it off with a person, if I no longer want to be in a steady relationship with him. At least for me. I think for guys, this part isn't too hard. At least if I was married, the chances of me breaking it off with my partner would be eliminated.

6. It becomes mechanical. Especially if the love isn't there from one or both partners. I'd rather be madly in love with somebody and him be madly in love with me.

So there you have it. Those are my main reasons on why celibacy is the way to go for me. I'm going to start slow and make a goal to stay celibate for 3 months. Should be easy, right? I once went without it for 7 months, but this was during my senior year in college when I had endless exams, a thesis, part time job, applications, and 20 credit hours to juggle. But 3 months...I can totally do that.