I don't have it all together like I thought I did.

I had a dream last night. Without going into the details, I think it symbolized something that I surprisingly failed to pay attention to. I failed to pay attention to me holding on to the world's idea of success and achievement while putting everything else in second or lower place. For a moment, getting an education, making a name for myself, and earning money was more important than family, caring for others, spending quality time with God, and even my own life. Earning status by getting a higher degree became a god and all the pressure that came with it easily took over my mind. Everything else, I felt, didn't matter so much. What I perceived as having goals and ambition  was really vanity. All I cared about was myself and how I appeared to others--even though it was fake. Strangely though, if this is indeed the correct interpretation of what I dreamed early this morning, I am happy that this aspect of myself was revealed to me. At least now I feel like God is beginning to really put a mirror up to my face in order to see all the flaws that He wants to help erase within myself. Or, He was revealing them to me this whole time and it took until now for me to acknowledge His voice. Now, I'm less clueless about myself than I was before and I'm excited that He's more than able to fix what I can't.